a break from busy

wow oh wow. can i have anything more to do for the month of may. i guess it's good that i'm not bored.

this monday and tuesday were the first two days that my husband has had off in about a million years. yes, a million years is a very accurate estimation. anyways, on monday we ran around trying to get some things for upcoming parties/showers and our trip to jamaica. on tuesday, i decided that i had to take a breather and hand out with my girls. we ended up running a few errands but spent lots of time just playing and spending time together.

miss ella grace is getting so big. she is losing all of that newborn look and is getting a few little rolls here and there. she is such a happy baby and a joy to be around. i laid her on a blanket and talked to her for a good while. i was able to snap like a million pics. it's just too easy when the babies are that cute. here are a few.








lulu is getting so big. she seems to be such a lady. her vocabulary has grown tons and she is using nothing but elaborate, dramatic, complete sentences.



she absolutely loves ella and is surprisingly very gentle with her.




we were able to go to houma and grab a bite to eat, get a few things from the mall that nannie needed. lu also got her nails painted which she LOVES having done. we even caught a few intense episodes of dora. shane snapped these pics of us cuddled up in the chair. i was so mad that he was taking pics of me but now i am so glad that he did because i love these.




hayden was at school so it was just the girls. i miss him though. we definately will be spending some time together when shane and i get back from our trip.

and if you are all wondering why we aren't having babies soon, there is no need. not when we have all these cute kids to spoil like crazee, and still get some sleep at night.

i am looking forward to a jam packed weekend of graduations, graduation parties, honey do shower, and working on some customer scrapboks. hope to get it all done.

hope your wednesday was happy.

ash

Cinco de Mayo!

In honor of Cinco De Mayo, here's a sweet pic from a mexican fiesta not that long ago.



we went as mexican workers.

and look at this one.



hahaha this cracks me up.

shane could barely look at me all night because he was so grossed out by my facial and chest hair. now, he knows how i feel. lol.

happy may 5th.

ash

Lately...

Lately...

i have been thinking of us.



what we want.

what we don't want.

our present lives.

our future.

the sacrifices that you have made.

the ones you continue to make.

our needs.

the lifestyle we want to lead.

the people we want to be.

the couple we want to be.

how far we have come.

our future kids. (way way way future)

what we want to be able to give them.

our future home.

where, what, when.

all of the things that make up our lives.

our dreams.

hopes.

wishes.

prayers.

Lately...

i have been thinking of me.



what i want from this thing called life.

what i have given up.

what i have gained.

what i have been blessed with.

what i need to give to my husband.

what i need to give to my children.

the sacrifices that i need to make.

the ones that i haven't made.

the person that i want to be.

the person that i used to be.

the progress that has been made through the Man.

my family and their thoughts about me and where i am going.

my friends and where their lives are.

the things that i am not willing to compromise.

the desires of my heart.

the hard work that i have done.

the feelings of embarassment and disappointment because of a choice.

letting go of the negative feelings and listening to the One who knows it all.

soul searching.

lots and lots of soul searching.

Lately...

I have been thinking of HIM.



the one who already knows the end from the beginning.

the author.

the finisher.

the one who knows my heart.

the one who gave it all for me to be free.

the one who knows which doors need to be closed.

unlocking the ones that need to be opened.

knocking at the ones that i must open.

praying for His guidance.

trying to be sensitive to His voice.

praying that He leads my husband.

praying that He speaks to those around me.

praying that they give sound, Godly advice.

praying that He helps me to understand.

not to question.

to embrace His word and His commands.

to let go and let Him work.

to not step outside His will again.

to make Him happy.

to please Him.

to make Him smile.

not to doubt Him.

to remember He sometimes waits till the last minute just to see if we will trust.

to learn the lesson that He is teaching.

to let Him mold me with His hands.

remembering that He is the peace in the middle of the storm.

that everything has a purpose in my life.

that He wouldn't have done it unless He wanted me to learn something.

that if it is His direction there will be a way.

there will be peace.

praising Him for what has done.

praising Him for what He has given.

who He has given.

Lately...

i can't quite figure it all out.

i am trying.

i know that there is a shift in my life right now.

that this is an amazing season to be embraced.

that i will trust God and know that He has it figured out.

i don't need to be worried about anything.

He holds the key.

always has.

always will.

realizing that i have a lot to be proud of.

i have achieved a lot.

i have reached for my dreams.

i have many more dreams to reach for.

knowing that shane and i both have to make sacrifices for this to work.

knowing that i need to make more sacrifices.

knowing that shane has been so selfless and so giving and so loving.

knowing that now, at this point, i have to make choices and decisions.

i cannot run from them.

they have to be based on God and what He wants.

nothing else.

no one else.

Lately...

life is so good.

it will only get better.

it feels good to know that i am growing.

to know that this is a time for change and growth.

to know that i will succeed.

i will do what is best for my husband, my future family, myself.

i will remember that He is right on the side of me.

all i have to do is reach for His hand.

...just a little peace of my heart today.

ash